My father, who just left without a word of explanation when I was 18, has decided this is not viable anymore, so I'm supposed to move out by 10th of next month, "either to some cheap rooming house, or under the bridge, I don't care", as he put it. It's kinda funny, for years, i've been unable to solve a debt which theoretically amounts to 3 months of my theoretical achievable salary. I've been about 12000€ in debt for the past 8 or so years, half of which is just debt collector fees. I am unable to keep a job for more than 4 months, so after being fired from about 20 or so of them since I was 18, it takes immense amounts of mental and emotional energy to even start looking for one now. My practical average monthly income fluctuates from 0 to about 200. My theoretical monthly income should/could be around 4000€, based on my skills and experience.īut I'm a (manic)-depressive, chronically lonely idiot loser (and the manic phases come more and more rarely in recent years), so
I'm living with my mom, in the apartment where I was born, in the room i've been living since I was born (with the exception of 2 attempts to move out which together lasted 9 months). okay, maybe not even a rant, more like depressive rambling: Oh yeah and for the people who are going to call bullshit on this one, I've got one source and if you search engine on the title of that article then you'll find loads of websites having that story: “God only knows what it’s doing to our children’s brains.” Last but not least, the part I found the most scary: The underlying thought process while creating platforms like Facebook or Instagram is something like “How do we consume as much of your time and conscious attention as possible?” So even an ex president of facebook is admitting this. “It’s a social-validation feedback loop, exactly the kind of thing that a hacker like myself would come up with, because you’re exploiting a vulnerability in human psychology.” Haha, one of facebook's early investers/ex facebook presidents said the following in an interview: It's funny, whenever the subject of facebook vs privacy comes up (mostly I don't even initiate those convo's), people always start to defend facebook when I say that I THINK that facebook is build to get people addicted to it and get them to stay on facebook as long as possible. I think it actually helped her even though I did nothing. So I took my role as the human rubber duck and sat down to listen to everything even though I almost didn´t understand anything. I soon realized she wasn´t only looking for help, she was probably feeling alone in the work she was doing and just needed someone to talk to. So I came over to her screen and she started to tell me everything about the project, the technology and the language. But she was eager to get me over to take a look at what she meant.
She asked me a couple of questions about a technology/language I´ve never touched before and I told her I never worked with that technology or language and know nothing. So she´s kind of alone, working on another project, and that seems to suck really hard.Īnd this is how I became a human rubber duck. So I have a colleague in my team that for weird reasons is not allowed to work with the same thing as the other colleagues in the team is allowed to work with. So yesterday I became an actual human rubber duck!
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